I, me and myself

after a long time, i am sitting alone in starbucks.. reminds me of good old usc days.. in usc it was java chip in starbucks, french vanilla in hut, and near tommy trojan as well. ironically, i find these cafe very peaceful, calm. :D. even though you are in crowd, if you sit alone it is very serene. and if you have company of your friend then it is very positive happy happy place. some new thoughts percolate in, its a very nice change to sit alone in starbucks. In india for majority of my friends it was CCD, but not for me. There were some local outlets cafe in front of my college and company , were i have njoyed a lots and have lots of memories. i had a random question in my mind: Can you list down 3 places where you want to sit alone. I can list few, but i have a feeling that those places will arouse negative depressing thoughts, not that i dont have -ve thoughts in starbucks, but like today those -ve thoughts are suppressed and positive / calm thoughts are prevailed.

i never knew .. this is not posted yet, i started this post when i came back from irvine. it was to say goodbye to gavaar :) my dear friend who went back to india permanently. well it was awesome trip. had so much fun with nunu,pandu,gavaar. trip filled with love,laughter, is always nice. celebrated my bday as well, it was fun.nunu,pandu,gavaar i love you all :) gavaar as i told u, even though we didnt meet everyday here, still i will miss u everyday here, i am always hopeful and pray to god that you get all the success and love you deserve :) took a farewell photo in starbucks where many of our memories are related :) god bless you dear.

its been 4 years, and i cant forget the moment when i was sitting beside you and you ..., there is no day when i dont remember you.. you are my inspiration. you motivate me to be honest, dedicated, humble, hard-working. the more i think of you dadasa, more i wish you were here. I miss you grandpa.. punit :) (byakkli dhor :) ) i so wished to upload a photo of us together, but dont have any digital copy :(

i have always believed in saying that time is greatest leveler. atleast for me, whenever i have behave inadvertently arrogant, felt ovdrproud,some point or later, i am always victim of same situation. not just me, but i have seen many incidents where events get replayes, but oppressor and suppressed get interchanged. i just wonder, what happened to people who were bad to me, some evil revenge thoughts inside me say that those people should suffer and i wonder why dont they suffer. but later i realize, this evil is no good to me, and i convince myself to peace. this cycle repeats after every bad incident. sometimes it is very easy to follow humility path, but sometimes it is not. and steps followed in later conditions decides your future thinking and events. I believe in GOD and his way of justice .. "Ache logonko ke saath humesha acha hee hota hai " :)

after a longgg time, i am having full lazzzy weekend, so njoying it. i had this random thought ,so thought of writing it down. Not that i am sticking to this low level details of marwadi calculations, but from some days i have been observing this thing, my salary is less than my fellow friends in my company, offcourse i am not getting into discussion of who deserves how much, i observed that their expenses are also bigger than me, new car, individual house or higher rents.so that expense got offseted to higher pay. now that i also pay higher rent, same thing is applicable to me. those who got less salary than me, but they have rent low and expense low , so its all same. my point is majority of us should feel happy about how things are going because in the end it doesnt even matter how much salary we have, because what matters is how much you save, and i think we ALL are in same slot :)

haha. i just came from india, and i flight i had atleast 10 topics to write.. i just wanted to write ..write..but now i am blank.. hopefully i will remember.

blog is where i can be most honest and open, so i would really like to say.. from last india trip in dec 2010 i am really feeling v old . not just because of being single or reasons like that . but those reasons may be contributing as well. offlate i have seen my younger cousins and my juniors(in college / school) doing same thing and are at same level as compared to me. not that i am not happy for them, i am v happy for them honestly .. but somewhere i am getting poked (for myself). some negative thoughts :( but anyways .. hope things get better

i hear many awesome quotes .. but always forget after some time .. "Life loses its meaning when we get stuck up in our comfort zone..." many software engineers will agree to this ..

I wanted ti write this post from long time .. but matter is crude as usual .. dont know what to write .. i was watching 'The Dark Knight' and it had some awesome dialogues about plan. i was thinking what is my plan ? am i the guy with plan, or am i the guy with no plan ? or am i the guy who believes in planning but have no plan ? i think 3rd category will be applicable majority of times. Most of times i have flow along with current of river. Choosing software industry was totally my choice. but was the choice circumstantial ? 1. was it because my other friends / cousin chose that field ? 2. was it because it seemed lucrative (money,work) ? i dont remember exact reason , but whatever it is i am happy about CS field. I didnt wanted to become doctor, and chose engr as obvious choice. I dont know what planning is : i just followed steps which seemed most obvious and common choice. school -> college -> engr -> job -> MS -> job (education loan repay :) ) -> ? i wond...

to all woman who refuse to sit behind in six seater ( pict college), to all women engineering candidates who got admission through 33 % to all women who claim they are weak, to all women who claim they are weak, and who take advantage saying they are weak, and in end laugh in private about fooling others, to all women who cheat in relationship and still are mentally strong, to all women who think boys only aim is to flirt with u (when they are not interested ) Happy Womens Day !!! ( It is as hyped as you are ) :P * Not applicable to everyone :) to all wonderful women in my life .. happy womens day.

Right now its raining outside and its lovely. So amazing it is - sunday afternoon , break from work, nice weather, and YES YES ..eggless brownies. yes my discovery about hersheys eggless brownies. Loved it. hehehe . you must be saying how much kiddish is this guy ( I dont care) , but eggless brownies are worth mentioning it my blog. whenever wherever i have went for grocery / food i have enquiried about eggless cake and brownies. Few days ago .. i dont remeber who said , but somebody said me to give up hope , for eggless cake/ brownie in safeway ( grocery store ). That time i said - i wont give up hope of finding eggless thing. and yesterday i found hersheys brownie in a small store. Although brownie was not in safeway, i am glad that i said i wont giveup and i found it eventually. It was one SWEET experience. literally !!!

!!! These are random rants about movie experience !!! After a long long longggg time .. finally i watched more than 1 movie on weekend. I saw Shutter Island, london dreams, my name is khan !!!. Shuttler island .. what to say about this movie . it seems like i was watching this movie for 2years .. ( those who saw the movie and were with me know this sentence ). it will win oscar, citical acclaim , but for me it was one pathetic movie which i wish i had not seen it .. Anyways after longgg walk from theatre to home , i needed something really refreshing to come out of shuttler island shock treatment . and i switched to hindi movies, atleast i had hope for happy ending. (totally different topic for blog : indian movies and happy ending ), but anyways i wanted to see some positive thingi. london dreams was OK ! nothing more , but liked the songs, and mnik was good . after irritating initial 30 mins , i liked the movie thereafter. I think movie experience is influenced by our mood (that time...

today morning was not a good morning at all. woke up and as usual first thing i do is check email / fb ... and news was Bomb blast in pune !!!! this is not what u hear about pune. pune - upcoming city , famous for colleges, software industry, food , marathi sarcasm, and may be lazy lifestyle... but i havent heard anything violent about pune.(touchwood). Offcourse i cant ask - why pune ??? because bombsite at any location is unfortunate and message of terror. I wanted to write this blog to express my opinion, although reiteration of facts , thoughts , but still feels good to write . Is this really a police / intelligence failure ? - no i dont think so. i truly believe police/intelligence cant keep with every damn illegal activity. security has to take care of 365 days per year , but terrorist need 1 moment to break into our lives and spread terror. - not this, but isn't any of bomb attack a personal venegance, or not a terrorist attack. Probably lots of movies going into my head, b...

hehe .. was watching indian ads :) . and yup i was smiling .. mein khush hoon aaj khamaka .. offcourse ..Happpy republic day :). saw `phir mile sur mera tumhara` , not original and awesome as first one .. but it is good .. god knows if i will fall in debate of which is better.. but i am njoying both .. yups , one more reason to get happpy , sandeep gave awesome news that he got engaged. cool buddy , happy happy. chalo tata ..gn :) Song of the day : Mein khush hoon aaj khamaka :)

:) Finallllyyyyyy writing a blog again... yeah .. for people who dont know .. previously i had a blog on yahoo 360 .. but a pvt one . .. and yes this is also pvt one .but just for now . :). Jatayu, hope you start blogging and as promised `sabse pehle` we will exchange blog links . Uptil now, i always loved reading blogs, especially writeen by friends, people i know. Lets see how this writing experience goes. Not sure what i will write in blogs now. some years ago my blog was full senti, lonely, shayari diary. But i dont think i will repeat senti stuff ;) loney and shayari stuff is fine . hehehe .. just kidding ... Nowadays i am watching "How i met your mother",and i am loving it. It is fun and trust me a senti , novice person like me is learning many things from it. 742 guys .you all are meri jaan , hehe just played counter strike with 742 kangaroos and it was funnn as always. CS remains a special part of our life :). Friends a secret from my side is pending . . probably ...